Friday, March 31, 2006
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Monday, March 20, 2006
now now...i'm not really talking about myeslf. in fact i would like to talk about some guys that i know and probably apply for a lot of guys out there as well. recently, i have found this very shocking discovery. i never realise that things actually happened this way. i thought they did it because of something else. alright... no more guesssing...
the story starts this way, attached/married men who has another girlfriend outside the family is usually very loyal to their girlfriends/wives. maybe not exactly 'LOYAL' but they definitely love them alot. initially, i thought that all guys who did that have only one reason: they are sick and bored of their partners. then i realised i might be a bit wrong...
Sunday, March 19, 2006
erm...let's see. where to start? damn, it's such a hectic lifestyle. i don't even know what top talk about first. there's so many things i wanna say...! i mean, 'type'.
ok, i'll start from... the.... err....argHH. i forgot. anyway, last few days have been really really crazy and super tiring. i didn't have a proper sleep for almost a week. even worse, on thursday night, i was typing from 12.30 am to 12 pm friday. that's almsot 12 hours that i spent on my assignment, typing adn typing non-stop. thus, i sacrificed my beauty sleep. i wanted to give up so many times, thinking "what the heck, i'll just donate that bloody 20% away. there's too much stress to bear with". anywhow, i made through it. BUT i knew my essay was a piece of shit. i was just hoping for a few marks worth because i made such big sacrifice (beauty sleep). mUAHahhaz... fuck dat assignment lar. i'm so so thorugh with it! finally.... i'm quite peaceful now. that day i was so stress that i vomitted and diarhoea-ed. and i couldn't breathe most of the time.... Friggin siCkening!
thinking bout it makes me all sick again. if only there's a few more assignments like this, i need not worry about planning to diet. *breathes out* now that i'm all relaxed again... hm...oh yeah. this is a must-mention-thingy. JAMIE'S BIRTHDAY. well..we celebrated for her in tiffin bay, starhill. there's lotsa pics...but i'm kinda lazy to upload them. er...and there's no jamie inside the photos from my camera. so i'll wait till she uploads. hAha..... only me n carmen used my phone to camwhore.
btw, an extra note; jamie's in love. so is carmen.
ok, next topIC... i din watch any movies in the past few days. such an achievement! *clap clap*
erm...what else? look, there's just too much to blog about and i don't know which to start first. this is not a crap blog k! hMppH!! of course, now that i remember. BAD DRIVERS. now now, to those of you out there who loves to drive fast, cut lane and put no signal...ur doomed. i always swear at those people who do that. i mean, looK! there's a reason why there's 2 huge lightbulbs at each side of your car, so make full use of it. i really do not mind letting people cut in front of me from the next lane, BUT use your signal dude. SIGNAL! don't anyhow barge in. OR cut lane already, then only put signal; too late. OR put signal at the very last minute; like a milisecond before you turn. rude, no manners and dangerous. you probably could afford to crash your car. i can't.
argHh...see, now i don't know what else to say. too angry. eherm...i have sore throat now. not related. anyways... i so love my boyfriend. s.a.y.a.n.g him to bits...he deserve it. he was being so nice to me the past few days when i was stressing over my assignment. he teman me go drink 3 cups of kopi-o almost every night even though he's sleepy like hell. then, just to make sure i finish my assignment and not waste my time around the house, he stayed in my room with me and wait for me to type finish..until really late at night when he has work the next day. that day on thursday night, he even volunteered to accompany me do my assignment cos he knew i'll be so stressed and bored. but i rejected him...because i knew it's going to take the whole night! and i was righ..i took the whole night ANd whole morning! mwahZ... he's the best!
i lurve my hippo-toy...isn't she cute??! i kiss her good-night everyday!
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
i find this world really really weird. that's because when you like someone, there's always something obstructing and you can't get together with him; or you all just met at the wrong time at the wrong place although he's the right guy for you and you knew it. it's pathetic, really. we have to match the time, place and person in order to work out a relationship or else all will fail just because of a small mismatch. why would we be arranged in this way; that we can't always meet the person we want at the first time. we always have to go through mr./ms WRONG before we finally we found mr./ms RIGHT. then also, it might not even work out after many many many years...
you see... they always say, it's that way because God wants us to learn to appreciate our loved ones. that our beloved someone is not easy to be found and to keep them, we must know how to appreciate them and shower them with love. yeah right. the cold hard fact is, things aren't always the way we want it. have you seen people dating one another for more than 6 years or so, and you were so sure they're getting married soon...then suddenly they declare breaking up?? i bet most of you do.
another thing is... never let go of any chances or possiblities that passes by. if there's a guy/girl that seems interested in you, or you're interested in them. GO FOR THEM! what are you waiting for? you still doubt whether he's good enough for you? whether he's compatible with you or not? the truth (again) is... you will never know until you try it out. what is the point of sitting down, delaying time and ponders whether to accept them not? there's only one thing you need. 'like' or 'fancy'. it might just develop into 'love'. analyzing the whole situation with your brains won't help. just follow you heart. your mind doesn't always tell you the right thing to do.
fact no. 3: love is always unfair. never expect to get the same in return. you might receive lesser and give more OR receive more and give lesser. as long as you're happy and he/she is happy. any shit works. just do what your heart feels like. if you feel like buying him something, go get it... don't calculate the numbers to see whether you will get back something the same worth or not. if you feel like kissing him or manja-ing him, go ahead.. just don't expect him to be doing the same mushy mushy stuff to you. like i said, as long as both are happy... aNY shIT wORks!
the blabbing bout l.o.v.e ends here. i know i'm not qualified to say things like this; that's why it's just blabbings. oh, it's probably i've too much caffeine in my blood. since 4 days ago, i've been living on steven's corner's KOPI O; every night to do my assignment. last night was the only night i can go to sleep early. today the cycle starts again. it's going to go on till thursday night. one more assignment to finish and i can say goodbye to kopi o. feel like puking right now... stress man stess. never underestimate what stress can do to you. all kinds of sickness.
Monday, March 13, 2006
Friday, March 10, 2006
you all will not understand how is it like to be cursed with procrastination spell. that's because i doubt anyone of you can be so relax like me when there's 2 more assignment due next week. i still have another 3 days to finish one of them. i'm putting myself in grave danger.
the bad news? i haven't even read through any notes to look for the points!!! the good news? i can proudly declare it a holiday because i enjoyed it like one. for ONE day ONE night. that's only about 24 hours but what more can i ask for??? most of my collegemates are online now... either away/busy mode on msn. they're probably already went cuckoo and smacked their head against the computer! ok fine, maybe not that serious but wendy did sound like she did that. didn't you wendy?!
another thing i can be proud of? i watched another movie. HAHA. i watched it in genting... Underworld 2: Evolution. looks like i never let go of the cinema wherever i go isn't it? i think that's quite true. 6 movies in 11 days. me and my boyfriend are the record breakers. sigh... we calculated.... our movie tickets worth almost a thousand bucks by now. 29 movies. you count.
i went genting with him twice. and this time seems like the better trip. it wasn't a boring one like last time. i didn't have to wait in the room while he burns his cash away in the casino. i got in!!! after 2 tries that is... so i went in and watch him gamble and i give him a few numbers of my choice sometimes. and there was once i said 24, he didn't listen to me... or he could've won rm 900. sigh... i guess it's just fate that if the money is not yours, it will never be?
damn da casino. anyway... i have to add. this time it was a really meaningful one. serious! we talked about 'serious' things instead of subjects like what you want to eat and where you want to go. we kinda had a heart to heart talk over dinner and i began to understand him slowly. it's also a relief to know that i'm not the only girl who didn't completely understand him. one reason is because he's unpredictable...he admits changing from time to time. god bless him, i hope he didn't mean his love for gf as well. i always thought that i'm the only one who didn't get him out of all his gfs before me. compared to my bfs in the past, he took me one hell of a hard/long time to 'catch' the real him. and for your info, i'm not really 'mission accomplished' yet. i still haven't know the full-him yet. still learning. it was a really interesting conversation between us but the fact i love most is... he doesn't sugarcoat his words when he talked about certain things. he was straightforward but it didn't hurt me. i was happy... because all i wanted was the TRUTH. i wanted to see know he describes me, how i looked in front of him and what type of a person he sees me as.
i want to say again....i'm tremendously happy that he told me those things. at the same time, he indirectly told me that it doesn't mean that he doesn't love/sayang me if he ignores me or kept quiet most of the time. it's just his nature... he does it naturally. from that moment onwards, i look beyond all his words and actions. and i realised, yes, he's right. i CAN actually feel his love for me even if he never responded much or kept quiet. it's all the small matters that he did to shows that he still cares. that he loved me as much as last time and even more now. the magical thing is... also from the very same moment, i noticed that he somehow started to pay more attention to my feelings and he damn sayang me wherever we go, whatever we do or eat...
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
so... i'm having my break this week. it's more like a mid-term HELL than mid-term BREAK. i think they kinda labelled that wrongly on our academic calendar 2006. i prefer looking at may, june and july. it's bout 2 months and a bit mroe of HOLIDAYS. pure holidays...no assignment. nothing!!! can't wait. anyway...like how i'm always 'me'.... i didn't really stress on it. i tried to accelerate my work but i can't. i'm cursed with the procrastination spell. i spent the whole day in salon today... and i look like this....