Wednesday, November 23, 2005

gRowing and harvesTing funGus...

it's 12.15 in the afternoon, the sun is shining right on top of my head. erM... supposedly. i can't see the sun, it's so cloudy today and it just rained. siGh, i feel like a bumb-bag and freakIng useless at home. there's tonnes of house work waiting for me.. my pile of dirty clothes are like calling my name~!! this is freaky... still, i can't make myself do house work. haih...guess i'm just not house-maker material. my room's a real mess, like the aftermath of a hurricane. my room is not the typical girl's room. hahaha... know what? i'm going nuts. coz i stayed home a bit too long. usually i wake up, hit the bath room straight away and left house and willn ot be home till midnight. i'm going crazy!!! someone helP... ask me out. drag me out of this scorching burning hell (house)... ok, this is nuts. i'm just going to take a swim now...

*a huge siGH*

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

*numB-eD*


this is so weird. i officially finished my exam already, but i don't feel much difference. i have a feeling i know why. firstly, during the study break and exam week, i behaved as if there wasn;t any exam and i took it so lightly. i noly studied a day or 2 before eventhough i never paid attention the whole semester. Since i already had the holiday mood in me before this, now that it's really holiday...i'm so numb, i can't feel holiday-ing. i'm still doing the things i did few weeks back. ooOOh... however, i felt much better because i wouldn't need to worry bout exam when i'm walking around or when i'm in the fitting room. HAHA! hurray to that...


*breathes out loudly*

right after exam yesterday, i was supposed to go bangsar and get a massage with jamie. but i got ffk-ed. it's forgive-able though. she had good reasons... i met up with her anyway. she looks like a mess... who can blame her? she has been crying non-stop, almost the whole time i was with her and kah mun. i was curious what made her cried so badly... and i found out why after coming home and go online to read her ex-bf's blog. it was a cruel post in his blog. i can obviously say that blogs not only give space for a person to express her/his thoughts, but also a tool for revenge and a channel for arguments. and advertise of course! like what i did before this, i post up the description and the no. plate of the car who hit-and-run. haha...evil me.

after jamie, i went kean foong's house for BBQ. i missed out a lot of fun...!!! siGh... but i still had my share of fun. was there for 2 hours... foongy's dad is so cool. still young at heart, he made jokes and talked crap like no other fathers. amazing..and yes, he gave some of us tequila pop. a BIG glass of it.. cool dad! sadly, got to run off earlier than others cos i've a date with my darling. movie at midnight...we watched harry potter. i've counetd the ticket stubs i've collected... we have watched 14 movies in the duration of 4 months and 2 weeks! that's like a movie a week..

sigh, i'm getting more and more boring aren't it? wonder how to stand the coming 6 weeks of holidays.. i went sg. wang, Kl today with the intention to buy a cheap samsung handphone as temporary/spare phone. but i didn't buy any hp in the end because darlin said he will sponsor a bit next month so that i can get my k750i straight away. have to wit another month for new hp :( *sigh* since i'm not buying hp, i went and buy a shirt and lipbalm instead. hehe... damn, i just couldn't resists spending money. bad habit.

talking bout spending money. he made me cry yesterday! before da movie, i gave him the watch that i bought a 2 days before. i bought it specially for him because i was in a good mood and i felt like spending a big sum of money...on hIM. usually i prefer to spend it on myself. the response i got from his was totally the opposite from what i expected. how ironic... he asked me why i gave him such an expensive watch. i said for no reasons, and he kinda lectured me bout it. he told me that i shouldn't spend so much money on the watch, that i could've bought cheaper watches from swatch or something. it's still a watch after all... but the watch i bought looks nice on him! sigh..he didn't scold me or anything but then i started crying because this was not the respond i expected. the very funny thing is... pay attention to this>>> he said that i should've spent the amount of money on myself instead and not on him because it's my money. funny? then he should not give me money to spend also rite becaue it's HIS money? secondly, his point was not to ask me to save money and be thrifty. he just didn't want me to spend the money on him. although it's supposed to be a gift from me. his point was to tell me to waste the money on myself such as buying handbags, clothes and etc etc and not on him.

isn't that weird? ppl want their gfs to not waste money on shopping but he wants me to do so as long as it's not something too expensive for him. he suggested that i could've bought a shirt, pair of working shoes, and swatch watch for him with the same amount of money. made sense, but he looks so good with that bloody watch! isn't it more wasting to buy clothes for myself because i only wear them a few times and stopped wearing them if i don't like them? isn't it better to get him a good quality watch which could last him a few years? then, the money will get the best value isn't it. he made me regret buying him that watch! i bought it for him happily and now it made me sad thinking about it. imagine all the clothes and shoes and accessories that i could've bought with the money. it'll be a whole day of shopping! dAMn... he's evil. *hmmpppH*

anyhow, i know he cares about me. he pujuk-ed me with his stupid jokes and innocent looks after that. called me 'cry baby' somemore. it's all his fault! now we have a new motto,

"your money is my money, my money is your money"

hahah how dumb. never love him less though, even after all this crap.

don't tell me i'm hopeless, i already know :p

time to gO down

i just found out that i can be really emotional and also be a cry baby. never expected that the once 'no-crying-sammy' could be like this now. what can i say? time changes people isn't it? it's so true that every human has his/her ups and downs. i really meant ups and downs... once your on your peak for quite some time, there has to be a time when it is time to come down and taste hell a little. jut a reminder that happiness is not everlasting after all.

the reason why i said all this is not because i'm in a really really saddening problem. in fact, it is just a minor problem which could be a no-problem-thing. i made it become important... so much that it occur to me as a problem that matters now.

it started off as a joke. someone told me before that every joke has 30% of truth in it. I guess it's true this time. whenever that i understood the things he said, he will say that either it was my hearing or my understandings. many times i couldn't get what he said because:
1) i am not that pro in cantonese and he used words that i never hear before;
2) sometimes he sounds more like a mumble and i couldn't get the words right;
3) he used shortened sentences assuming that i would understand.

i wish i was much more fluent in canto, then this problem wouldn't arise. he never get angry at me or scolded me before, but i can see that he starts to get fired up everytime i ask him to repeat what he said or decoded his message wrongly because i heard totally different word(s). this problem didn't just occur now, it has happened in my past as well. is there any doctors or whatsoever who i can go to? to seek my problem. is it because of my hearing? or it's just because i'm slow and poor in receiving messages? i guess it's my problem that made communications imperfect because perfect communications go through the comm. process smoothly. no interruptions, no wrongly decoding messages, no noise...

now i'm quite sure it was because of me. today, he got annoyed twice and told me that i have bad hearing twice. the first time he said that i have bad hearing as well as bad speaking. it seems that i don't speak clearly. i resisted from crying and chose to zip my mouth. i totally kept quiet and not answered him everytime he asked something. he pujuk-ed his way out...

later at night, we were on da phone. he told me that he was going to yam cha with his frens at the mamak opposite his apartment. i heard that he said he was going to yam cha with his frens who stayed opposite his apartment. i almost cried again. whenever jamie says that she dislike herself for crying so easily, i half-wished i could be like her. it feels terrible to keep everything inside. i couldn't cry out because i felt stupid. i couldn't cry out about this in front of him because he would think i'm paranoid and despise me. what can i do?

one sentence he said triggered my tear glands. it was "i think we have a communication problem". it was said in a jokingly manner but i do take it seriously. tell me what should i do? what is my problem?

stArt aNew...

with everything NEW!!!

i am so soO hapPy...

* bounce bounce*

after all the "hard worK" and burning midnight oiL.

i wasn't really "hardworking" but i claimed myself to be so..

because.. i was so freaking hardworkin a few days before exam!

that's wat we call 'last minute revision'

and because of the last min. thing,

i always skipped the last few chapters!

damn...sure cost me lotsa marks.

but whatever, hell with exam...

though i still have another last subject.

that's a week later..but now;

i declare "HOLIDAY"!!!

first of all, who said study break and exam week was all about exam?

during study break, i worked part-time,

3 days before my first paper i watched Chicken Little,

2 days before my first paper i watched Zorro 2,

a day before my 3rd paper i watched Corpse Bride,

during my exam week i went shopping.

an hour after this, i'm going to watch exorcism of Emily Rose.

3 days later, i'm going holiday with my darlIng for 3 days!

*breathe in*

what a wonderful world!!

secondly, it's so haPpy to have him around,

he brought happiness just by doing stupid things,

making himself look funny,

make stupid faces and noises,

forcing himself to stay awake to keep me company

and all da little little things that many people do not notice.

everytime we go MV to watch a movie at night,

he'll try to get me a toy..those that u put money into the machine

and direct the clamp to get ur toy?

i have two of it now...

so silly of him by wasting so much of money to win one each day.

then, i got a new watch from Titus...

actually, it's more like 'he got it for me'

i never wanted him to pay for me,

but he insisted in paying the bigger share....so

he's the biggest shareholder of my watch :)
changing my watch was something significant.

it was throwing away something broken in the past,

only to replace it with a better one.

something else has changed too...

i bought myself a new wallet.

that marked a new beginning too...

somehow in someway,

i felt like i've left some of my past behind,

to pursue better ones...

improving what i have,

bit by bit...

well, shopping and exam all rolled into one.

that's wat i called 'enjoying life'

let's hope that pleasure doesn't make me fail any paper

*prays really hard*

toO late to regret!

i never thought i'll be so far behind in my revision. before the holidays started 2 weeks ago, i already had planned my time. that i work and study for one week and then i have another whole week free to continue revising. my planning was futile. wat's the point of having plans when you are not able to follow it? firstly, the whole 8 days that i worked, i never studied because i was too tired to. and i spent my free time going out. secondly, it's already the last week before my finals, it's a wednesday today, and i only studied about 5% of what i should have been studying. eventhough i know that i'm always good in getting away with last minute revision?work, i have a bad feeling this time. i can't believe i'm THAT LAZY and such a gOOD procrastinator. i'll be happy enough if i just 'passed' my finals. won't dare to ask for more.

speaking of worKing for lacoste for 8 days. i got so damn sick and tired of that fragrance. i smell it for 8 days in a row. my nose got so irritated by the smell, it was always red and rudolph-like. now that it's over... i'm droOling over the money that i'm going to get. MEANS, i'm finally getting the handphone that i wanted to buy. after many many months!

it was such a nice experience working with my other 9 buddies. we're one terrific team. hahah... and we're all assorted. all different personalities and stuffs... ya know.

to jessica, nawwar, koyie, annie, mei, kes, fendi, mathan and joel...it's lovely and FUN working with you guys!

it's da gUrls and da boSs...

then we have da guys and da superviSor..

the rest of the photos can be found here >>> http://sammy-bammy.blogs.friendster.com/photos/lacoste_essential/

lAcoste, lacoSte, and LacoSte...

i swear i'm gonna have nightmares bout lacoste..

even after i finish my job as a promoter.

every single day i have ti say and repeat the same thing;

"hi sir, would u like to try the new fragrance from lacoste?"

seriously killing my throat and my body..

so friggin tired..

and i still have another 4 days to go.

dAmn!

but for money's sake... hahah let's forget bout that.

i'm gonna grin from ear to ear,

and jump and bounce after i get my cheque!

wOO hOO!!

i seriously think i have such bad luck these days.

jamie thinks i should pray everytime i go out of the house.

i nearly got summon yesterday for beating the red light.

hmm...but i got my way out of it.

"you know lar"

but it's a big amount.. HmmMm..

*stabs heart*

jAsoN's b'dAy

today is actually jason's bday... it's 22/10. hAha.. and we celebrated it for him yesterday. i feel very guilty. frankly speaking, i didn't know it was his bday till his girlfriend, sie yuen a.k.a MRs. Aw told me and jamie. well, luckily we met them yesterday in one utama, or else we wouldn't even know! hahA.. yea, so the truth is out. :)

me, jamie, c.yuen and jason went over to c.yuen's house to have dinner. and we girls cooked! c.yuen who barely cooks...helped! miracle. although it's not much help :P hahahh...

* da birthday boy sleepiNg & eAting the pAsta we Cooked*

*all of us trying to loOk like a catfish. jamie's idea*

jaSon's caKe...

jAsOn and his gF, sie yuEn.. and da cake... :) sOo loVIng..

see what is jaMie dOing... siGh. she got feddap of waiting the pic to be taken!

finally, we got a better picture. after a few tries of couRSe..

anyway, happy birthday to my buddy, jASOn aw eng kuOn.!!!