Wednesday, August 31, 2005

ANOTHER day wasted...


yet, another day wasted.. i spent my whole day out of the house only to know that i have tonnes of homework n assignments up my arse. great.. and i just only found out that i have acc test on mon right after this week's break. shitZ.z.. luckily suet reminded me.. now, i have more things to worry about because i didnt pay attention in accounting class.


then again..i 'planned' to finish at least half of my assignments by today and see what happened. i am at level zero now.. but i have outdoor plans lined up till friday. sat n sun i have to work... siGh....

i woke up yesterday with the heart and the will to do my homework. went online for an hour, and i called wai yin up for lunch. i tot it's just going to be lunCh. which means after eating, i'm going right home. yeah right.. john tan sms me at the same time to meet him in ss15 cos he's around there. so i picked wai yin up and met john to have lunch together... killed 2 birds with one stone! and i get to meet john's gf... ngek ngekz.. ate till 3 pm.. called kit yee to come out and meet us. i didn't see her for almost a year... so lunch wasn't just lunch...

drove straight to ioi mall cos she stays near there.. and to see my darling. :p 3 of us girls were shopping in giordano.. we nearly turned the shop upside down.. bought pressie for foongy, my classmate. my darling didn't reach work till 6pm. terrible cough medicine.. he couldn't wake up. i bought some clothes for myself and ambi-pur for my car.. then went yam cha together in wong kok. hahahah... 3 of us laughed so much our stomach hurts.. and i laughed till there wasn't any sound coming out, but u see my face laughing like an idiot. that's how hard we laughed.. the good old days. my bf was there too but he felt so out of place... cos he wasn't laughing. :(

my dad came home early yest cos it was merdeka eve... i didnt know! shits.. he called me at 7 pm n asked me where am i. too late to still be in college rite? haha great.. told him i'm in frens hse coming home soon. so i reached home at 8pm after dropping wai yin off.. and kahmun came to pick me up at 8.45 cos there's another gathering for girls!

it's so so so rare to have 5 of us sitting together chit chatting. everyone's so busy.. so there we were in mont kiara's coffee bean. we had out drinks.. talked and planned for our holi.. took pics even!! then i got a call from my bf asked me wanna go join his frens in genting or not.. i was like wat???! so suddden... i was wearing skirt. shyTz.. i went anyway. it was jAm on the way up to genting.. reached there 12.30 am..means i celebrated merdeka in the car. muahhah.. like i bothered anyway :p

lepak-ed there....had baskins... freezed myself to death... bla bla bla... i reached home at 6 am. shits..again... my father woke up 10 mins before i got home. got screwed for 10 minutes and i went to sleep... today i still haven do any of my work..! i'm so scared now... how ler???? damn..i have to leave house in one hours time for birthday parties... *sobs* i'm gonna be a drop-out. how am i gonna manage to pull through this time??



Tuesday, August 30, 2005

a day wasted


11am:woke up and realised i was late for my lunch-date with jamie.
called her and knew that i'm not the only one who overslept. hahA!
postponed my tuition.. went lunch with jamie. chit chat...
still very late for tuition..
6pm:stayed in the house after tutoring to watch teeVEe... which reminds me.
i din watch tv for almos 2 months. saddening...
anyway, got a call from my dearest>he ends work early today~!
8am:yippee.. went home and waited for him to fetch me..
couldn't find my bunch of car+house keys...dad's gonna kill me!
went dinner with dear + kahmun and her dear..
went over to his house and helped him iron all his shirts!!!
12am: yam cha... with kahmun (again) n her dear n a fren
came home>> found my keys!!!
then go online, and type this...
did i mention anything bout doing assignments?? homework? study?
nO? guess i wasted a day to slack again.. damn

>>> i found out that it's true... girls do feel secure when guys hold their hands.
>>> my bf dislikes his pics being put up..so u won't see any of his pic lying around here...
>>>i am so paranoid.. i know i'm thinking too much. darling explained why he was quiet these days. it's his attitude that sometimes he just don't feel like talkin. he denied about himself changing. so much happier today...
>>> always tell myself i should see him less or he'll get bored of my face fast. failed again today!
>>>i must do some hw or assignments tmr or i'm not going out!
>>>i'm still getting confused over the html for this blog.. so u can't click on 'comment' because u cant.. there's no hyperlink yet. is it hyperlink anyway?? whatever lar..
>>>the person who designed this template in the first place is a bit err... dumb. if ur using mozilla firefox, u can't scroll up or down and the sizes have all gone haywire.. if ur using explorer, u'll be fine...dun ask me y cos i duno.

Sunday, August 28, 2005

misunderstood


The sun seems to be dimmer and everything else just became colourless because of a small misunderstanding. well, to think again.. it was a big misunderstanding at that time. I just regained my colourful vision on life yesterday, thanx to kah mun. it was like "bingO!". this problem that lasted for almost a week has finally came to an end. The same thing is still happening this very moment but i am standing on another perspective to look at it now and a problem does not look like a problem anymore...


This thing that has been happening for the past few days is related to someone i really cared for. it was that care that contributed to this confusion. he was sick with slight fever, cough and sore throat; and to make things worse... he didn't have enough sleep for a few days. that totally got him on the edge because my sweet and caring guy was replaced by a quiet and moody fellow. it happened so sudden and without warning, i didn't have a chance to prepare for it and trying to adapt to it was even harder.

trying to maintain my own self, i continued to be the caring and talkative companion i usually am. me talkative; he quiet. me hyper; he's more dead than alive! there you have it: friction. he got even more moody. I did the same to get even. Even more friction. Sat in the car in silence. ate in silence. i was on the edge of crying because i thought he changed. honeymoon period's over...?

Communicating with each other was so difficult. he lost his voice at first but even after that, he didn't talk much. his non-verbal response was inconsistent. sometimes, there's zero reaction as if i was not heard. i kept on asking him how is he feeling and why is he so quiet. the more i asked, the more disappointed i got. it was a one-way communication... his physical condition was the catalyst of this all. miscommunication was happening and his unwillingness to communicate made things more confusing to me...

now, i totally understand what happened. it's the 'guy thing'. kah mun reminded me about the book "men are from mars; women are from venus" where they did mentioned that once in a while... men will hide in their 'caves', stopping communication with the outside world. only himself. they just want to be alone but want someone to go to when they come out from their caves. so here i am... waiting outside the cave with an opened heart and arms.. and a whole new perspective on things. we both seem to come from 2 different planets with different background and different understanding. it takes a lot of energy to actaully understand the opposite sex. now i wish i have read that book till the end... i stopped halfway few months back. still having the book but it's not mine. hehhe...sorry kammy!! yes, i shall continue reading..