Wednesday, April 26, 2006

based from experience, i'm quite sure that stress (more like OvER-stress) from by last minute studying can cause lotsa side effects, such as:

  • nausea and vomitting
  • difficulty in breathing
  • skin diseases/dry skin
  • delayed periods
  • headaches and migraine
  • dark circles under the eye
  • short tempered
  • emotional...

so, yes...YES. i've experienced all that. ALL okay? damn da exams. fine, damn me too for studying last minute. it's my fault for not being able to remember if i study too early. i can never study too early cos in the end i won't remember anything! yeaps..that's it. enough of self-blame. i know i'll pass all my papers. i think i know. or, i'm hoping. whatever. my life will be back on track after this friday.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

i've NOT changed. a little but it makes no significant difference. have not updated for a fe days because i look at my blog and i've decided to leave it alone. i have much more better things to do.... e.g. yam cha. HAHA. damn... supposed to be studying the past few days. the other way round happened, i yam cha more than ever in this week. EVERY day for the past few days... maybe a week?

i went to Steven's Corner. it's STEVEN's, STEVEN's... STEVEN's. might even have nightmare about it soon. carmen even claims that she's addicted witht heir food and can't live without it even for a night. serioUS...hmMph.. maybE there's druGS?

my first exam paper has just passed. thinking skills. bleaHh... it was all crap. i just want a pass. nothing more. i remember being lazier last sem, how come i think i'm gonna fail more this sem? maybe i'm just stupider...or the subjects are tougher.

i've piCked up smOking. i know, it's bad. i remember exclaiming loudly.. "damn smelly. i hate faggers". and now i fag... a light fagger at least. ironic, i still think the same... they ARE smelly. ewww... don't even wanna smell my fingers after smoking. yuCk yUck... hopefully my plan works. hopefully he will listen to me and cut down on smoking and gradually stoppEd. though, what he told me yesterday kinda make me disappointed. wait till he see me smoke..then he'll listen. it'll work..right??? even more ironic, i did this to make him stop...but then, there's many people out there trying to stop me. one threatened to 'hantam' me if he sees me smoking in front of him, one says he'll do 'god-knows-what' if i continue. i won't get addicted..

have trust in me.

mean while, i'm just using them as erm... anti-sleeping pill. ciggies work fine to keep a person awake and it's doing good for me now. doing wonders actually. better than any kopi-O. especially if i haven't study for a subject that's 2 days away...and also the subjects after that. sIGH.

i kinda miss him... ALOT ALOT. have not been seing him for a week and it feel's like a month. that day i was so sure i didn't see him for a month, but when i look at the date, i realise it's only 7 days. fuCking 7 days... ONLY. time flies like shit.

reminder again: i'll quit ciggie once i accomplished/fail my mission and after i not need it's help to stay awake... to those who plan on smoking, it really is smelly. especially your fingers. beware. but again, it does wonders! *grin*

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

single and N/A

finally, da day has come. not like i'm waiting for it, don't misunderstand. it's just that he really is not going to be with me for quite some time. back in his hometown, enjoying his peaceful life or bored to death; i do not know. though i wish he's bored to hell so that he'll not be able to stand it and return to KL a.s.a.p.

On the other hand, i wanted him to stay there for quite some time until my exam finished. this way, i can spend all my time on my friends [the books] and also go meet up with him there a month later. dilemma sial.

i finally started studying, isn't that great? it's already TUESDAY for goodness sake, and i've just STARTED. there goes my A flying away. i guess i've lost my chance in doing better...again. i only have another week before exam starts, minus 3 days cos i need to work.

ironic. i remember being so semangat in the beginning of this semester, telling myself that i'm going to do better this sem and to be more hardworking.

study, study, study; i told myself.
no BIG P [ProcrastinatiOn]; i warned myself.
Avoid last minute work; i reminded myself.
and now, it's all down the drain... washed away to the sea because i don't see them anymore.

hangat-hangat tahi ayam. THAT's mE alright.
posted up a few piCs....for funNn.

birtdAy dInneR in Klang.

from left: iris - sUmathi - leRoy - saMmy - diAn [notice the colors]

from left: sammy- sElina - reNa - chEryl - sOo chia

soo chia - stePhanie - saMMy wEndy

not to forget Yin LI and Foong.. (no pICs).

pressie [dress] from collegemates...

Sunday, April 09, 2006

i'm a RED person

i'm so so free now. i've decided to do some nonsense online. besides, i can't put myself to bed after a few cups of alcohol. *buRp*

then a friend sent me some quiz from, about what is my true color... and my result is this...


Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.

*** in conclusion, i'm passionate, impulsive, romantic, fickle-minded and alive!

went to Taman Pertanian, Shah Alam just now. it's like a reserved forest with windy roads and chalets far from one another. those chalets are meant to be reserved by people, you know, to enjoy the relaxing environment and run away from hectic city life. for activities, we can go jungle trekking and cycling around there. the scenery is pretty...air feels fresh. not to mention, you become a source of food for loads of mosquitoes...

*scratch scratch*

my bf's friends all went to spend a night there. both of us only went there and hang out for a while and left a few hours later... we played games and drank whisky there and i thought i'll be tired enough to go sleep. i'm so wrONg... siGh.

Saturday, April 08, 2006

20th year agendas

my birthday has just passed by a few hours. no more TEENs. i can't say i'm nineteen anymore. i AM twenty. eWwww... *spit spit*

what an old hag i have become. i can virtually feel my skin loosing the elasticity and my boobs sagging while my bones start to ache.

muAHhah...ok, not that serious, but yes...i can feel the extra one year now. can't really avoid it anyway but think about the bright side, one more year and i'm an adult. means total freedom and err... no more panicking when going to places that require 21 years and above e.g. clubs and casinos. yAY!

on wednesday, i celebrated with my collegemates in Lecka-lecka, in front of Starhill KL. thanx and hugs and kisses from me to those who came and to those who got me the pretty dress. muAxxx.... thank you thank you. and that cake... Yummm, i know what you guys are up to. make me gain weight rite? hahah that's why you all made me bring back HALF of the cake!!

on thursday, my birthday eve. just spent the afternoon with my darling and erm... did nothing much. spent most of our time getting stuck in the jam. what a day! then had the 'countdown' thingy in Steven's Corner with jamie, carmen and the bfs. thankx guys..for the muffin. :) the boss was really sweet, he spent us makan some super big fried crab. uber sweet of him. have to admit the buttons on my short nearly flew out, and felt the additional unwanted fats spilling from the side of my shorts. ate damn alot that day. *buRP*

TODAY, my big day. spent the morning in class, afternoon with agony and night with fooD. it's not as perfect as i wanted today to be. but good enough. my afternoon was terrible, wasted a lot of time from some misunderstanding plus traffic jam in KL.

what the fuck is the people in government doing because i see hell lots of pot holes everywhere. now i wonder where the taxes went b'cos we're not getting anything good from government. look at the bloody roads and you'll know some rich politician buggers are laughing with golds spilling out from their mouth.

ANYway, at night we had seafood dinner in teluk gong, Klang. now a tips for some of you, go anywhere BUT the one called 'seafood restaurant teluk gong sdn. bhd.' it's da first restaurant when you turn into teluk gong. bloody banned that restaurant. the food sucKS like shit. i was never picky about food but i'm complaining, you do the thinking.

haha..and there was another cake from jamie, yan girl, kah mun and the rest. thanx girls... and er women. mmUAXxx! btw, i'm so sad...suet li never come *sobs*. plus a soft huggable doggy from edmund. plus kisses from my darling... i'm a happy 20-year-old hag.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

woRth the lauGh...

ok, it's not just worth the laugh. it's hilarious! i'm supposed to be studying.. yes, i know. it's less than 2 weeks before exam. but damn, can't control myself. i have to waste my time and loathe around. but the good news? look what i found while surfing around. hahah...

really..... i'm still trying to figure out whether it's really box 'box' or its a figure of speech. and then, there's these donkeys who really asked him lotsa funny Q.

(if you can't read the one i post on my blog, go to the original website,

Monday, April 03, 2006

totally smitten

i cannot believe what i just heard from him. all of a sudden, he said he has one good news and one bad news for me. the good news doesn't sound really good because it makes no difference to me, but the bad news.... sigh. no comments. he probably already had this on his mind few days ago. that explains why he was so nice and spoilt me alot since the past few days. even insists in seeing me almost everyday, it used to be my role when it comes to being the manja girlfriend.

well, it's all clear now. probably he felt bad for having to do that. i never blame him though, he should do that and he has no choice anyway. so... wat's going to happen is he's probably going back sabah for erm...3 weeks or so? starting from the week after my birthday. which means.... he won't be here for me during my study break and exam period. no one to de-stress me, no one to accompany me have kopi O's, no one to pamper me and make me go home everyday. no one to motivate me to study and concentrate. *sobs* plus... jamie got bf redi... won't have time to accompany me. *sobS* kah mun, my yam cha better be free. and of course...hor yan and the others too. 'layan' me!

i can recall what happened when he went to sabah fro CNY for 10 days...i was almost going crazy. this time, it's 3 weeks? i cannot imagine. damN. have to suffer through the exam period alone... this is what i call being lonely. well, it's ok i guess. i can take it... at least i have something to look forward to. he said that if all goes well, i can go take a flight to sabah and meet him after my final exam and he'll take me holiday there. *sobs* how i wish that is going to be true. it better be... he has to make up for this. HmmpHH!

Sunday, April 02, 2006

suFFEr now, enJoy lATer???

it's all because of that.... i have so much to say, but so little energy. let me summarise them:

  1. only two days of work with the F&N roadshow have passed. TWO DAYS ONLY. and i'm already lying down half dead at the end of the day. good thing i'm not going to work for it next week... but then i'll have to go the week after next. hell...all because of extra money. my bf just told me he saw a small patch of purple veins on my thighs. it's that serious alrite...i stand and walked that much. well, at least work was fun and the people there are so friendly. oh.. and funny!
  2. i swear i'm gonna spend a part of the money on holiday this semester break. i don't know how and where...i'm going HOLIDAY. and made my bf promised me he'll take me somewhere at least.
  3. my last assignment is on monday..i'm so happy.bloody happy actually...and i only have one more week of college before my final exam. after the exams, all hell break lose... i'm gonna do everything that i wanted to do but didn't have the time.
  4. i dropped another kilogramme again. that means i drop 2 kg in one month time. one kg was due to assignments... another kg was due to work. i didn't even need to diet. hahah... i should be happy rite?
  5. i haven't studied anything for finals. i'm so doomed and there's so many readings. plus lecturers from USM are all crap. last minute can change the exam format. morOn. from full objectives to 75%essay, 25% objectives. there's like 20 over chapters for marketing subject ok! shit..i have no time at all
  6. i love my boyfriend so much.. he's so sweeeT. beh-tahan... he's jsut too good to be true. slap me... tell me i'm dreaming. ok , don't. let me continue dreaming. hAHA.. he's still so nice and stuffs after 9 months.
  7. i've worked 10 hours today and i'm so tired. my legs are so pain i feel like chopping them off. so yeah... good night. oh and there's photos of me and kah mun in our very attractive uniform. ahhaha ..can u sense sarcasm?'s not too bad. way much better than Lipton's uniform.