i believe that one day (very soon) i'll die due to lack of sleep. i already lost sleep the past few days, and it's not just a few hours. it's alot of sleep when you add them up altogether.
today has not been a very good day as well. i thought that the problems between me and him were officially over 2 days ago where we talked EVERYthing through. being honest is very important. oh yes, it is VERY VERY important. so i learnt my lesson... and i've been honest since then. i was wrong because after that the problems that evolved were due to some other reasons.
the problems that arise never stop and the 'discussion' happened every few days. it's starting to make me feel sick and i don't like the way things are going now. in fact, i'm already feeling very 'sick'. you name it; constipation, vomitting, headache, dizzy, irregular periods, stomach cramp, amnesia, mood swings bla bla bla...the list goes on.
today, i've been very honest with him. i never intended to lie because i knew he already understood. little did i know, God has his way of playing pranks on me. somehow... a different issue started in the evening. from having a superb day without much worries, my night was filled with trauma (again) because another 'discussion' was held and lucky for me, all goes well... we ended the night well.
then i woke up just now feeling all numb and dizzy and thought, "hey, it's the 6th of June. Exam results day" i checked online and there's still nothing yet... so i came online. while i blog, my pet rabbit jumps around my keyboard typing all sorts of funny words and is currently chewing on the keyboard's wire. it's good to have something cute and cuddly thing next to you who doesn't know how to make any noise (except to sneeze). i'm dizzy, i'm sleepy and i'm patiently waiting for the results to come out. the rest of the day that has passed is history. AND i believe history always tend to repeat *cross fingers*